Hello Everyone...
I know I've been gone for way too long.....and I'm going to attempt to make a comeback.  I don't blog from work because I am too concerned about the big brother stuff and getting into trouble for doing so.  Besides, where I work...they monitor your web surfing, etc.  And---some blog sites (blogger.com and others) are literally restricted sites and notations are made you were attempting to access them!

I'm having all kinds of trouble with my AOL and my home computer...so I have a laptop I'm going to get busy with.

 

I am okay.  I'm poor...very poor (not that I was wealthy before) but I have a severely reduced cash flow now. I'll make it--because I always HAVE made it. I've been more poor than this and I'm still standing. HAHAHAHHA  After I get over my self-induced withdrawal from everything I always bounce back.

 

I met a very nice man who I am seeing exclusively and almost 24/7.  He is younger than me which  was early on an issue for me but not him. He is 36. I am 52.  He tells me that I am pretty and beautiful, smart, etc., etc.  He cooks! He washes my car! He treats me like a princess.  One day after a particularly crappy day in cube land, I came home to find a rose on my pillow and a card.  On my birthday last month, he not only gave me flowers, he arranged them himself and hand delivered them to my office.     Someone hold me back!         He is very fun to be with, very witty, creative and OMG handsome.  We have a great time together and I really enjoy everything about him.   He is 6'3", 210 lbs. blonde hair and blue eyes.  I can hardly contain myself he is so fine looking!  I have never dated anyone that looks like him.    HAHAHAHHAHA Wow...I am in magic land.   

He met me by sheer "stranger to stranger social conversation" at a tire store where we both were customers waiting.  He asked me to coffee...I went about a week later.  But coffee turned out to be dinner (then coffee)  He is the impetus behind my recent split decision.  I wasn't seeing him at all and he wasn't WHY I made my decision, but he made me get out of my "I'm ugly and worthless and no one" mindset.   He's one of the reasons I'm not online that much. I'm actually busy...doing stuff...going to movies, flea markets, yard sales, playing games (no not that kind...scrabble, battleship, trivial pursuit), going thrift store shopping (which he loves to do)....visiting with his family. 

I finally have someone who likes to be with me who laughs and makes me laugh.  I feel so good in my heart.  I don't know how long this will last --- but while I have this joy, I will savor it.  After all the losses I have endured in my life of so many proportions and through such tragic circumstances, I have learned this much-----enjoy each day....and that is what I am trying to do...keep an eye on the positive side of my life and cherish each moment. (well, not mowing the yard...but I consider that exercise now..GRIN!)  Hell, I even take vitamins now.