Hi Everyone
Sorry for the lapse in reading/writing blogs..I'm in the recuperation mode right now.
He is gone and I am trying to clean up the leftover mess in my home, garage, basement, head and heart.  I had to take the pets to a kennel in order to be sure they were safe.  I took myself elsewhere to make sure I was safe. 
We are back home now...the furkids and me.
Now I have a lot of work to do physically re-organizing and re-arranging and I'm trying to get that done.  Taking a week off from work this week for some downtime to do these things.  Learning to take care of my yard myself.  For some of you that would be "what??" as if I don't know how...but no, I don't.  I'm not a yard work person...learning to become one.
I'm also trying to recuperate mentally and that will take some time I'm sure.  My decision to break up with him was a decision that should have been acted upon a longgggggggggg (as in years) time ago but I was a chicken shit and didn't do it.  Fortunately, the cosmos intervened and someone came into my life giving me at least the guts to do this. 

Thanks for listening and I'll be back after a re-grouping of my home and my head.